4 years ago in psychotherapy when I was trying to understand why I allow myself to be a doormat, why the white middle class director thought she could bar me from my own rehearsal, why I quaked inside instead of standing up to her, I learned a technique called mentalisation that made me feel entitled…

Photo is Reno memoirist Laurence Beddows in nursery with Reno head Rashid Finni. Innocent. Before Maggie's first act of stealing school milk.

We left 2018 talking about mixed race mental illness. We enter 2019 with a plan to unearth its cause. A technique I learned in psychotherapy called mentalisation – listening then processing, instead of assuming and reacting. To help us contextualise our half-caste Reno story in the fabric of society.…

Robert said, 'Everyone talks about the past, what about now?' That a Transwoman, a Asian woman covered in spit with a Paki husband ‘The Long Story', and recycling the Whitworth’s William Kentridge installation become the Reno.Live TV show.

The ladies' discussion gave us half caste. The men's gives us mental illness.

We've had the marvellous 'half-caste' rant, we've discussed our workspace in situ, the Whitworth/Reno negotiations began, I got angry, and here we're a little bit deflated. But not to worry I've spent all week making sure our design goes to plan.

In the big house they make tea in china cups brewed for 3 minutes. In the quarters they drink water from a ladle. Slavery has ended. To make amends the masters have agreed we can tell them what it has been like being us. What they want is a nice little puppet show that they can pack away when they tire…

Every video is a pebble in a forest. To help all class of person follow our path to self expression. I had the most fantastic meeting with Whitworth technicians Paul, Sarah, and Emma today about realising both our workspace and our concept.. Made possible by our first negotiation, here, with the Whitworth's…

To conjure our Reno exhibition we need to a workspace with 4 clearly defined areas: A 'living room' to hatch ideas & the public watch our memoirs. Tables to formulate our ideas. A station to edit our documentary so far. And a station to construct our photo-book.

Nikita asks us a simple question: what do you want to get out of the Whitworth residency? Why are you here? Our answers take us to the heart of the project. They build to a crescendo.